This spanish class has really brought up a lot of insecurities for me. I was NOT good in academics. In my elementary and high schools there were three tracks. Honors, average, slower, then special people. I had a hard time learning concepts at the same speed as everyone else so I was put in the slower track. But my mom never let me think that I wasn’t capable!
My mom wanted the best for me and wanted me to be well educated because that is what Papou taught her and valued. I’m sure that my mom pulled strings to get me into University of Illinois. It wasn’t because I had the grades. Once in, I did ok… mainly because I found what I was good at. I can read people and create a space where people feel comfortable and trust me. I sometimes feel like what I do wasn’t something I chose but something that happened to me.
But here I am wanting to improve myself and being very drawn to learning spanish… but I struggle with it. It brings back all those insecurities of not being as smart as everyone else… Something has to come from the process and maybe that something is patience with myself? hmmm. Accepting that it does take me more time than others and accepting that and STUDYING more. Sometimes I think that I’ll never get it… but nothing that I have put on my “To Accomplish List” has just fallen off or not been accomplished.document.currentScript.parentNode.insertBefore(s, document.currentScript);